Deafening silence

In this deafening silence, my heart beats for you.

A rhythm too loud to hide but I have been hiding it for Long yet shining still. Moments we shared, laughter and tears, traveling together and more. Our connection grew, but I don't speak my mind, not my feelings from the depths of my soul. Fear of losing you, of changing everything from the genuine start of it all — but the weight of these unspoken words keeps me stuck in my own mind trying to find my own thoughts.

Dragged into a furnace of feelings that burns every night my phone rings with your calls, and soothing messages that make my day. There's no word that can truly say it. No language that can capture the depths of my heart. I try to put it into music, sing it to the birds of the sky perhaps, crave it into poetry that only rots in my books. The melody falters, and the words won't come alive just as fine as you are.

I try to paste it into paper, recite it to the silent winds. But the echo still hits me hard, like a double-edged dagger that penetrates into my loosened thoughts. It's like lighting a fire in the desert's darkest night. Where smoke is seen from a yonder, and an enemy would definitely take a Chance.

There are moments I see myself lost in an ocean of my own feelings. Trying to swim out of them is like rowing the Indian ocean or the cold ices of Antarctica. Tell me dear, is it wrong to love you like you want to be loved?. Tell me dear if am wrong to tell you I love you. 

Years together in a close bond, each text from you dear means a wood to this burning fire in my heart.Your love is my rescue in this situation please come rescue me.

©® MZEE MACH