The Fantasy World We Created

Sometimes I feel broken down into fragments,
future that cannot mend.
I feel myself slipping into a dark void,
into an abyss yesterday created.

I am all grown up now, and mysteries
unravel in the face of reality.
What seemed doomed has gained life,
and buried mistakes have taken a toll on me—
a hard revenge against what we created.

What our hands created—a thing we called ours,
because we partook in making it—
a co-creation that became
a gazette desert of nightmares and hallucinations,
things of a demonic fantasy world.

I now dream of spring fields,
summer chaos,
the ninth of July,
and all we meant when we said we loved each other—
which was all a lie.

I still imagine how you’d knot my tie,
or prepare an apple pie for breakfast.
How we joked we’d die if we weren’t together,
how you’d cry on your bed at night
because I couldn’t be there to cuddle you till morning.
And yet, you hoped everything would be alright.

I was too frail, lost in daydreams,
too blinded by your love.
Your beautiful eyes made me a puppet
when you stared into my soul.
I felt magic all over me.
I felt love.
I got lost in your world of fantasy—
where you held me frozen with your angelic touch,
the melody on your sweet lips.

How could I not see?
How could I fail to see the world through an angle of sanity?
How could I not realize that all was vanity?
The world we created was never meant to be.

How could I not hear
the reverse of the songs we danced to,
the betrayal behind the kiss in the rain?
How could I not realize
we were just living in a fantasy world we created

More Than Roses

 

Today isn't just a day — a day about couples and candlelight,

It’s about love in all forms

So I’m speaking tonight.

Not with chocolates or flowers

Wrapped in a bow under my elbow

But with words, majestic rhymes

Words only my pillow

Had heard me speak them in my mind

Sing them with a heart that's hollow

‘Cause real love is deeper

‘You know.

Deeper with words more and more

than materials can tell you, show you

 

What it means to love perfectly

Love one so dearly, unconditionally

You ___my ride-or-die

You ____my partner-in-crime,

The one who shows up, no matter the time, line or dime

Through late night conversation

And laughter so loud,

You shine on your own

You don’t need a crowd.

Nor a crown to fit in my heart

Forget the cliché of a Valentine’s date;

you are more than date and fate

____you’re something great.

My love for you is never lost

Like lost in the mist,

'Cause you're more than a sister

You are love, love for life

Just look at the list

This scroll inside my heart

It's all written with my blood

That it's you and no one else

You love dearly with your words,

your kindness so overwhelming and your mind,

You love wholeheartedly

With you might so real, So refined — so divine _

A commander who only sees you in his rare view

But not the whole you

Is like a general who has lost a battalion 

because your are so precious

So tonight, a night of love

Loneliness and waiting around are of a gone tale,

Perhaps fantasy of a dead Cupid to you my darling

Because you're already a queen

 

My beautiful queen,

Give me the honor of crowning you

To be the star above the skies let me anoint you

—with my blood from my precious veins

Let me anoint you with my words from my purest heart

And affectionate love

From my deepest feelings

And if the world ever tries you

Through pain and tribulations

To make you forget

The crown on your head

______ Remember, I got you

So be beside me and let's ride through thick and thin

Through the storms and waves

So I am here to you no roses nor rings things—

No poses nor sing just real love from your best friend,

My king-to-queen thing be happy tonight

Be loved for life

 

Memories Of You

today I sat lonely on the mat

our old ragged place

where we learnt to love

and never let go

where our beautiful souls

learnt to embrace

the eternity of love

the thing we called ours

on this torn mat

facing the beach, —

the sand ourfeet used to know

pictures of you stillroam

ravaging my thoughts.

Here on this mat

our souls learnt to make

stronger promises

So did our eyes —

learnt to deny what we say

our ears deaf to the core

and our hearts learnt to betray

Oh! Dear these memories

all the stories we wrote together

consume every bit of the fragments

of my broken heart

these memories of you

lingering my scar-full heart.

Do You Wander Enough?

Do you ever wander—

about how love destroys us,

eats us from the inside,

leaving us numb to the core?

Our eyes still see the light,

the sparks that dance in the moon

and her silver-lit stars,

but not in the eyes we once sat by the shore

and admired in deep silent wonder.

Our hollow noses catch the scent

carried by the restless wind,

but not the fragrance of clothes we once wore,

were hugs painted the essence

of our bonded souls.

Do you ever wander—

how love steals our thoughts,

conquers our hearts,

and builds within them

a home of fleeting joy?

How it robs us of our tears,

our fears,

and those we hold most dear?

Do you ever wander?